I got something in the mail about going on a boat trip to Africa. I talked to my mom, and I decided to do it. When she went to drop me off, we got there, and I realized that I had forgotten to pack. She went home to pack for me. I was worried that she would see what a mess my room is. She came back, and I worried that she hadn’t packed enough clothes, but I didn’t say anything. Then it was time to leave
I was at a small, white, school-like building with a bunch of high school kids I didn’t know and a young man who was in charge. We walked around for a while, and I introduced myself to one of the girls. She was a couple inches shorter than me. (So about 4′11′.) I told her that I would probably fit in best with her crowd. She was very nice to me. Eventually we came to a connector like they have to get on airplanes. We walked through there, and we were on the boat. There were no windows, and it was dimly lit. It looked like the interior of a house. I went to my room and unpacked my things. I felt sad and scared, and I regretted going on the trip.
I ended up in another part of the boat. It was dark and it looked more like a space station than a boat. I was wandering around when the man who was in charge found me and told me that I could only wear black pants. I started to get weirded out and wondered what the whole “trip,” was about. I made my way over to this large, sleek, black structure that looked like a saucer held up by a thick, curved stick with another curved stick on top of it with another saucer on top of that, etc. There was an opening at the top that led back to my room. I tried to go up there, but there was a panther right in front of the entrance and it tried to attack me. Behind me on the lower floor, there was a vicious dog, and I could hear him barking because he wanted to attack me, too. I had to choose between going by the panther or the dog. I chose the dog. After that, I was aware that I might never be able to go home. I was upset because I would never see my mom again. The trip was just a trick to capture us.
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“To see a panther in your dream, signifies lurking danger and enemies working to do you harm. It represents darkness, death, and rebirth.”
My thoughts: This kind of dream is not typical of me. For starters, my dreams are usually somewhat realistic and sometimes believable. For another, I don’t think I’ve posted here about a dream that didn’t involve familiar people. I was completely alone in this dream except for the brief part in the beginning with my mom. Every so often, I have a weird science fiction sort of dream, and it’s usually after I’ve been watching too much TV or after I’ve seen a movie. Like last time, I had just seen Wall-E, and I dreamed about going on a space station that was controlled by robot-aliens. That’s basically what happened in the movie.
I think this dream was manifesting my fear of loneliness. I’ve been alone a lot lately because my brother has been at camp, my mom has been at school, my dad has been at work, and I don’t make much of an effort to hang out with my friends. While I usually choose to be alone over being with people, I still feel very lonely, and it makes me REALLY sad and scared that I’m going to end high school with nothing to miss or leave behind. I also get scared being alone because it’s really hard to be alone with myself and my feelings. This fear is starting to enter lots of new parts of my life, including my dreams : /
